2 months

爱是你眼里的一首情歌

总是不经意的想起　你喜欢哼的那首歌曲　
一样温柔低吟　依旧牵动我的心　
我曾寻寻觅觅　想在文字里寻找爱情　
才发现最美的诗句　原来都在你眸里　

爱是你眼里的一首情歌　轻扬着飘逸旋律　
让我不知不觉的陶醉在　你缠绕的深情　
爱是你眼里的一首情歌　轻拨弄我的心弦　
让我不由自主更　深爱着你

This was one of XDD's favorite songs, by 刘雨晨(I think! Not the guo1 mei3 mei3 version). Very poetic lyrics. She's been gone for 2 months now. Everything about her is still very vivid. Down to details like :
- how she used to call me "Dear Deer"
- her hopping ard at home with her lil pony tail bouncing
- her skinny back view while she puts on make up (always takes ages. can take a nap while waiting ah!)
- her bony arms reaching out to me, telling me "ESP!!"
- her itchy hands. Must traverse every single shop in the shopping mall and touch touch everything.
- her FAQ :
> "Dear Deer, am I pretty today? "
> "Dear Deer, that ger pretty hoh? " (Must say "Nono! U r prettier." Immediately!)
> "Dear Deer, how do you know u love me? "
> "Dear Deer, if I leave u, how long'd u remember me for? "
> "Dear Deer, I m hungry!! Where to eat? Feel like drinking hot soup."
> "Dear Deer, m I fat? "

Can't forget the cold n lonely atmosphere in the hospice that day. Even though we were surrounded by dozens of friends. I m numbering my days for her. Some might say it's not the right way to live, but I just feel like doing that for now can?

Me going to visit her during lunch today. Will play her favorite hymns. Gonna include the song above and her other fav mp3s.