02/01/06 Slightly worried but I shouldn't be

I don't really know, sometimes when I swing left and right, I thought I can feel the fluid back in my abdomen again. Tummy feels so BIG all the time. What if my blood test results are bad this thursday? Dr See wil have to change medication for me again? That means the chances of surviving is lowered again?
There are too many uncertainties, my focus is all wrong. I should concentrate on things that could be helped, like being happy :)
Read a book, it says A decides in the morning "if something good happens to me, I'm gonna be happy," B says, "I choose to be happy no matter what happens." A can go wait and waste his years away hoping that happy things happen to him but B is constantly feeling good because most things that happen is worth being appreciative and happy about.
I am definitely B( or maybe usually a bb :p), and how I wish more people too are.