28/02/06 A BIT OF THINKING

Kept thinking about death recently, very 不吉利 I know. Can't help it, I may not feel work stress, study stress, relationship stress but I feel the pressure from Death and Sickness.

Last week, I was contemplating the major difference between dying young and dying old. You know, one of my greatest fear in life is 'loss'. The thought of losing a loved one totally freaks me out. My worst nightmares consisted of losing my parents, which is so thouroughly shattering it will just crash my entire world.

So if one dies young, one need not face one loss after another.

Okie, but if I die young, then the people around me have to deal with it.

So, both ways, dying old or dying young has good and bad points. There's no win-win situation. Thinking about that calms me down. Strange right.

Then yesterday, I thought of stuff like the good points of passing away. People often say things like the dead will bless the living and watch over them? I suppose one great point to be dead will be that? You can pull your living relatives out of accidents, save your pet dog from drowning, make sure your sister passes all her exams etc That's a whole load of advantages!

Maybe everyone should always keep a stack of lottery tickets so that if 'choy' *touchwood*, something happens...then he/she can bless that the tickets bring in a fortune!

What a whole load of morbid positivity I've typed.