30/01/06 DA NIAN CHU ER

As much as I love the Chinese Language, it's really much easier to hand-write it then type it using the keyboard. I surrender.

Slept at 2 plus last night after playing bo liao 2-people blackjack with Feng and laughing non-stop over our silliness. Then meimei called me at 6 plus in the morning. Gave me a shock, I thought something happened to her. After several attempts to pick up the call, accidentally rejected one because I was rather groggy from sleep, I finally managed to call her back asap. Turned out she's at the door, forgot her keys at BengLeng's house. *phew*

Read comments attached to this blog this morning and I'm very touched. Several have told me my mundane daily records of my insignificant life has been heartwarming. Tell you what, the comments and encouragement or random rantings of friends and strangers made a difference to me. I love connecting with people, this is one exciting channel~

Okies, enough of my kaypoh`ness. Hmm...what else happened? Swap got a new pet bird that flew into her house yesterday. Cute fact is that the bird was so tired, it fell asleep on her chair after flying in! That's one kukoo bird.

Feng got 2 free GV movie tickets from her company as a birthday present. We're gonna use it man! Meimei has started to call me birdie, perhaps due to my chirpy nature :p nah, she feels I look like one of those botak birds out there...think Chicken Little.

My stomach feels smaller today, despite fierce invasion of the new year goodies territory in my living room. My family has sort of banned me from cashew nuts, the super thick ba gwa, beehive shaped honey crackers, pistachios etc. Those who are coming to my house tomorrow, you've gotta try that super thick ba gwa, mum has tried to tear it into really small pieces, but they are still so THICK! Buay tahan.

Meimei just woke up, happily telling my mum about her mahjong adventures. I played a bit also, winnings and losings combined is a positive 30 bucks, not too bad :) Wow, feel so good, I've not just typed and typed and typed whatever comes to mind for a long time already. I know it's boring to read but feel so shiok to just type random thoughts. I'm the kaypoh and ji zha princess!

29/01/06 大年初一

今天是大年初一，怎么可以不用母语来写日记呢！：） 昨天的团圆饭好丰富！我朝思暮想多时的鲍鱼与鲍翅终于出现了！我喜欢的鱼翅羹是有整片整片的那种，不喜欢普通喜宴或自助餐的散翅汤。 要像这样的！！

最喜欢的鲍翅！

超爱全家人坐在一起，享用妈妈熬了一天的佛跳墙。吃饱后，Deardeer 和 BengLeng 过来，一起吃龙眼豆腐还有打麻将！我从麻将桌和 blackjack 中赢了四十多块钱，嘿嘿嘿。

今早上起床后就开始不停的吃，感觉上肚皮和手臂都多了一层厚厚的肥肉 ：p 好，晚餐要少吃点了。真受不了，家楼下有马来婚礼。 他们拚了老命不断地嘶喊，其实是在唱KARAOKE。超级走音和难听，破坏了新年欢愉的气氛。

有点后悔太过宠爱娃娃了，早上抱着她又亲又疼，把她宠坏了。她一定是觉得自己很了不起，竟然跑到大门前大便！

招财大便

妈妈还笑嘻嘻地说形状很像 Deardeer 从她店里带来的招财烤猪手！爸爸更是兴奋，觉得是狗年的好彩头，一定要买彩票。

嘻！不好意思。

今年新年愿望是：知足常乐 ：）

28/01/06 SUDDEN THOUGHTS

Was just playing literati with Deardeer when I feel that familar pricking pain in my abdomen again. Feels extra bloated today. Halfway through the game, I got a sudden feeling that my time is up soon. Days like this, me and Deer will just tell each other to live each day like it's our last.

We used to use Dr See's words as a gauge, estimating that we may have 3 more good years together as she once mentioned the best case study she has is a control of my cancer type for 2-3 years.

Then when the 2nd chemo drug was used, my condition saw improvement and Deer started to be hopeful, imagining we could probably have a whole life ahead of us. Till the day we get our own flat, renovates it and go shopping for furniture together. Till the day we're old, going to the garden for our daily slow exercise routine hand in hand.

Today, honestly, I feel that day may never come. I feel so sorry for Deer.

That doesn't kill my love for life though (pain does :p).

I painted my toenails an obiang festive red. You can call it the SIA stewardess chilli padi foxy sexy red. Anything. It's once a year for Chinese New Year!

I did it myself! Really dui that I didn't have the mood and energy to go manicure/pedicure last week cos of chemo. Today I bravely attempted to paint full bloody red toenails and french manicure in red on my fingers! Bravo Niki! Way to go!

It's Chinese New Year's eve, and Wawa is all dressed up already while I'm still in my pyjamas. This is just one of the numerous costumes Wawa baby owns...that vainpot~

I like that pink, looks festive too with all the embroidery and chinese knots as buttons.

Her figure real good loh. Check out that curvy waist and the cute little feet!

Every bit of her is so adorable, her fluffy ears, furry chest, bombom buttocks and graceful tail. Her face!!! Isn't that the cutest thing you've ever seen?

28/01/06 A PORKY ENDING

What a fun day. I know I know...it must be sick and tiring to constantly listen to me talk about having fantastic escapades but it's beyond my control! Especially when I've great friends who drives me around, crap with me, buy me nice food etc etc thanks Xin, Cheryl and Sotong!!

What a true and sensible comment Jiefu~ Agree with you! And thanks for that great song you sent me this morning, so niceeeee!

Met Feng at Tiong Bahru Plaza then strolled to the famous Tiong Bahru Market to meet her mum at the stall.

This year everyone like flock to Chinatown and in Tiong Bahru alone got so many stall sell roasted meats, tao yan! The Crispy Roasted Pork so yummy ok! The crispy part is my favourite *salivates*

Me and Feng love this picture :p

It was simply fun and so good to sit outside the stall, Feng told me funny stories about her brother when they were little.*winkz to Feng* Kekeke *evil grinz* Then occasionally try to pull business abit from pass by potential customers. Feng's mummy sat down and chatted with us when she's free, while I feast on the oily hawker food. It all felt pretty 温馨 :)

Feng then discovered that I look like a 招财猫! Hahahaha....quite fun posing as one too. Gotta kek a 'ngiao1 bin3'. Hahahaha the 招财 Kitty was so greedy she couldn't bear to put down her chopsticks while posing!

'Kek'ing the Kitty Face

27/01/06 THE MORNING FEEL

If you live in a normal HDB neighbourhood, I bet there are moments when one will hear some kid in the next block experimenting with his/her recorder. This morning, I heard it again, some child blowing fiercely into one. Brings me back straight to my own childhood, primary school experience for me is bookshop, stickers, collection of erasers, canteen food and of course the recorder. Is it the same for everyone?

I try not to get into a pessimistic mood every morning. Feng ask me why people get upset and stuff easily. Isn't it easier to be positive than sad? Hmm, I think it's easier to slip into negativity and harder to get out of it. Though I agree with Feng and of course anyone else that a happy state of mind sits better in the heart than a dark one.

Cheryl's picking me up at around 12.30p.m then 环岛追追追 :p Will be a fun experience I think, she's jolly and so easy to get along~

XH broke up with gf again. Actually I care quite a lot about how she is, but too bad, her selfishness and unrelenting attitude towards it drives me further and further away. Given my health condition right now, I'm in no state to initiate contact en cas I get driven to my grave.

Mum just bought pandan waffle pancake from the market and starting to get busy cooking a light lunch for me now. Yeah last dose of Xeloda my chemo drug for the week this morning. Looking forward to the next few days without chemo! I told her I won't be coming home for dinner, cos I really wanna visit Dear at her parent's stall to accompany her~

Fruit juice every morning by mummy is so full of love and positive energy! Look what else I found!

They are all about the same size! Looks quite different from the usual US berries that papa buys. Meimei says they are from mummy's shopping. Super sweet, like honey. Lovely morning!
Strawberry Shortcake misses Blueberry Muffin, looking forward to a sweet CNY's eve's eve like last year ^_^

26/01/06 FANTASTIC AS EXPECTED!

Minling so nice, carried all the tissue she bought for me in Bangkok to my house from school. A pity she got mixed up and bought plain winnie the pooh packaging tissue instead of printed hello kitty tissue. But it's the thought that counts and you're a great pal Minling!

We chatted a bit at home, went through my most recent photo album and then head to Heeren to do some shopping as I wait for Ros while she wait for her friends. We shopped a bit..bored then checked out the 9th floor of Cineleisure, the game room chamber that stretches out at a corner were pretty interesting. Got bean bags, sofas, huge flat screen tv and two monitors each for gaming. After that, we finally settled at the new cafe( forgot name) that replaces the old Lips Cafe on the 5th floor.

Had a pineapple italian soda that Minling feels taste like pineapple syrup from canned cocktail pineapples, and a plate of mozzarella cheese sticks that were super super chewy and stretchy! I took a bite and see this!

This is already the shortest it can go, we continued to pull and it went so long, loopy and all. Quite fun to eat but too salty.

Got a call from Ros and realized I got 10 miss calls from her before that! The music at the cafe was so loud, we didn't hear my phone ring. Minling is pretty impressed that Ros never gets angry with me. I'm very blessed and happy to have such a patient and loving gf too. Thank you Darling Deardeer!

Anyway, Minling head off to meet her two guy friends whom she claims are her sisters :P then me and Dear went to Ngee Ann City. This Sabai Thai restaurant there on the 5th floor I think, I likeeeeeeee. Totally red dramatic setting with soft thai music in the background (which Ros finds disturbing :p).

The dessert buffet spread is right in the middle of the restaurant where the big mirror is.

The red dramatic walls makes the place a lil dark which I like. Love soft lighting, always set the right ambience for food, for anything!

We had 3 dishes and the dessert buffet. This is the starter, pomelo salad. Great balance of flavours~ a slightly tangy freshness from the fruit, peanut scent and crunch and a slightly spicy aftertaste. Aah. The white cream on top is coconut cream to give a thai punch I suppose.

Then we also had Thai red curry with pork, very shiok spicy thai curry but a bit too heaty for me. Pork very tender....just like the tender beef we had in the green curry when we visited the restaurant last year. The little sweet potatoes in the curry were cut to the shape of flowers!

I must document the Pineapple Fried Rice! Totally satisfied my fried rice craving. Every single rice grain is yellow and a mouthful of it fills my heart with pineapple, curry and carrot sweetness. Every mouthful of that fragrant stuff delights me.

After the flower shaped sweet potatoes, also got flower shaped jackfruit and heart shaped papayas! Can't believe the people there, sooo cute! All the small papaya hearts in the fruit section look so tempting.These are some of the dessert selection, it's tedious to go through all of them one by one but I remember water chestnut mini pudding, delicious coconut milk with tapioca, bananas and red beans coated with glutinous rice wrapped in pandan leaves etc Yummy, period.

Before we left, got small silver dish of jasmine flowers, toothpicks and mentos which all we didn't have any use for. Hahaha. I joked about putting the flowers in my hair then suggested maybe it was to de-odourize armpits..ok I know, GROSS. Had a good experience~~~~good service ^_^ good food ^_^ great company ^_^

Went to Taka to help Ros shop for underwear but all the small sizes were sold out, incredible. She complaint why all the bui bos don't wear the type she like and I glared at her. I like to wear large size also, that means I am bui bo?!

Rushed to 37 degrees in Heeren after that but it was closed so ended up shopping around Jazz/classical section in HMV. So romantic to be surrounded by jazz music, we almost ended up dancing and sashaying non-stop inside. I must have been mad!

Feel so in love it's unbelieveable, how can we so throughly enjoy being with each other!? Sometimes I think passerbys must think we are two xiao char bohs, always hold hands, hugging, whispering and laughing, but cannot help it! Feel so 幸福 to be together!!!

26/01/06 GREAT DAY AHEAD

Mum woke me up at 8 plus this morning cos got appointment with Dr See at 9.40 p.m. I tried to convince her to cancel the appointment, resulting in her tempting me with lunch outside with Ros after the doctor's visit, which in turn I bargained for a night out to pak tor with Ros instead. DEAL!

Where should I go tonight? Should it be Enotria at China square? Or Jap food at Siglap? Jap food at GoldHill? Peranakan cuisine at Novena? I can't wait!!!!! I'm so excited!!!!!!!! ^_^

Yeah yeah, Thomas uncle fetched us to NCC. Heng ah, cos the streets were decorated with people hailing taxis in vain. Dr See was very sweet, she skipped everyone else and called me straight to her room. After checking my tummy and giving me mc, she declared that my chemo in future will be on Thursday as it will be less crowded. So one day less for me to play next week...sigh.

Dropped Mum at the interchange to meet Papa on the way home just now. So when I reached home alone, played with Wawa like crazy. We chased each other around the house, played hide and seek, barking games...actually I was the only one barking as Wawa is a rather quiet dog. She did the funniest thing yesterday!

Mum found some pink cream bra paddings which neither me or meimei wants. They're soft, pink, and cooling actually cos got some high quality gel or cream inside. She put them aside and continued cleaning out the cabinet. After a while, when she wanted to throw them away, they were nowhere to be found.

There they are. Wawa used them as face pillows as how she uses any other soft item in the house, which includes our cushions, quilt blankets, soft toys, sometimes she even ransacks my mum's underwear drawer and fool around abit..yikes.

Who? Me?

25/01/06 BUY A WEEK OF LIFE

I'm buying a week of life with a week of misery. Actually, I'm starting to really feel more like a human being today so it's more like 5 days of pure torment and 2 days of slight misery.

RuShan my cousin is in the kitchen right now with mum, he's quite a good fella. He's around 40 le I think, very charitable and sweet person, just a wee bit naggy. :p He came over and gave me n meimei Ang Bao(AB)! Kekekeke.

Ros gotta help out with parents' business on Friday which is CNY eve's eve, cannot hang out :( Mum is so paranoid about me going to crowded places before CNY, I'm only allowed to Siglap or East Coast?!

*peeps* at the AB...wah I see greens and blues, must be got 50 dollar note...hee! Wah! got 100 bucks!

Had a really healthy lunch, Mum made salad with alfalfa sprouts, dou miao, water chestnuts and organic thousand island dressing, really really super tasty. All crunchy, wet with a vegetable fragrance, if got more vinegar for extra zest even more shiok! Also had Fig, carrot, potato soup with beehoon and lean meat. Great meal!

Meimei came home after driving lesson just now before going for tuition just in time to collect AB from RuShan, so lucky. Mum also made her sinful fried rice with egg and canned spicy diced meat (ba ding). I managed to steal a few big mouthfuls of that, really good. I adore fried rice...can't wait to eat more next week when I feel better!

I even managed to shower and dry Wawa today, she's clean and smelling fresh as a baby now. Really wanna go food hunting next week with dear, good food and love keeps my life going.

24/01/06 NEGLECTED TARTS

Last night, woke up at 2.45 a.m, dreamt of food. Dreamt that meimei posted pictures of mummy's fried rice on the baker's blog which I surfed happily before I slept. Was so hungry thus searched the fridge for food.

As I opened a small box of mummy's pineapple tarts, Wawa came running into the kitchen and looked at me with soulful eyes. Stomach was grumbling like mad, walked back to bed and enjoyed the tart. Guess Wawa was hungry and cold too so she decided to sleep on my bed.

Woke up again at 4 a.m, heard Wawa sneezing about 3 times at my feet. Cuddled her up into my arms to keep her warm.

6.06 a.m, hungry again. One more pineapple tart. Same great taste.

10 a.m, okie this time I shared the tart with Wawa finally. Her imploringly sad craving soulful eyes were impossible to resist. I said the magic word "mu mum!" and she flew into the room with helicopter tail. We shared the prize happily and enjoyed every single little bit of it.

When Mum baked those tarts, I was suffering from the side effects full force. Totally unaware of what's happening in my surroundings then, only groaning in pain and discomfort, puking or felt like puking. At least today, an intense urge to puke occurred after the medication, the rest of the day is still tolerable, not to a point I can neglect the wonderful pineapple tarts.

A bit of condensation after being taken out of the fridge

She chose organic brown sugar and organic flour for ingredients. The pineapples were so soft, yet slightly chewy with a sour tangy tingle, not overly sweet. So healthy yet delicious. Very little of it made this year because I can't eat much anyway, she only gave one container to Feng and left 3 for our own and visitors' consumption.

The amount of pineapple on each tart is amazingly generous, a huge ball of it.

No wonder these year she made so few...where got enough pineapple to go around~!

23/01/06 CUTE MUMMY

Mum went to the market and bought Doraemon New year lantern that says "身体健康" on it, she stapled the small pieces of red paper together and hung it on the small ice-cube light outside my room door. That's her CNY's wish for me I guess.

She has been very gentle and patient with me, crying with me, comforting me and boiling barley and soup non-stop for me. Now she's cleaning up the house and humming her songs to cheer up.

Mummy, 你是最好的。

By the way dear, I know you love me, don't turn to religion out of desperation to see me get well. Your love is enough to touch me to happiness :) God has plans for me I suppose, we just need to accept our fate.

22/01/06 CHANGE OF DRUG

This is the third drug I'm trying out. Thanks for the comments and encouragement and suggestions. I'm sorry to say this but today, I'm losing hope.

To everyone out there, trust me, cancer is the last thing you will wanna get in your body. I met this woman who sat beside me during chemo on friday. She used to work in KFC and ate that very often. she's got gastric problems then ovarian problems (prob due to overdoes of hormones inside chicken) and now the tumour spreaded to her legs.

Whatever it is, take good care of your diet. Do not eat too much processed foods, artifical colouring and preservatives, do not become anorexic or bulimic, try to quit smoking and limit alcohol intake. When your health is ruined, its too late for regrets.

Teasure your family members and your partner. I never knew my mum will be so soft-spoken with me, we were always arguing with each other. I even fought physically with my dad and sis before. Now I realise, they are the ones who will stand by you no matter what. No matter how high my medical bills are, how much crying they have to go through with me whenever bad news come. I regret all the pettiness I had, not bearing enough thanks and gratitude for my parents for simply giving me my life. Dear I love you too.

20/01/06 PLS LET ME CONTINUE

Only 2 more treatments to go before this cycle ends, please please give me a chance to complete it first. Please make it work.

If my blood test CA125 increases to more than the 58.9 recorded the last time, I don't know what Dr See will decide. If the CT scan done yesterday shows that the two growths inside my abdomen has not shrunk, I don't know what to expect next.

All these unknowns scare me. Everyone is working, carrying on with their normal mundane but assuring lives while I struggle with the thought of life, more pain, or even death every week. Honestly, I'm a bit tired. I would think I will get used to it in time to come, but now everytime I see a needle and syringe, I feel punched at the nose, tears roll down involuntarily.

Fear grips me whenever I picture Dr See telling me the cancer is out of control, don't say that I'm brave to go through all these, because I have no choice in this matter.

20/01/06 BLOATED ABDOMEN

My stomach is so big now I would think that the cancer is fighting back strongly. around 23 hours later, I will be seeing Dr See, see what she says bah.

Just went for a blood test and CT scan this afternoon. Gotta drink 4 big big glasses of pink liquid before the scan. Always feel like throwing up the liquid. A plug was injected into my arm so that a warm medication can be pumped into my blood vessels. Guess all these liquid serve as contrasts and highlights in the CT Scan film. So that my body in the reports light up, maybe blood will be yellow, gastric n bladder pink? :p

The drawing of blood went badly. The nurse was not fast enought to stop the backflow of blood from the needle plug and my blood just gushed out. Drip, flow...drip, flow...down my arm and big fat drops of blood non-stop onto the small white cotton armrest pillow. My blood soaked through and left huge red patches on it.

The nurse was kind of embarrassed plus nervous about it. She kept cleaning my arm, it was a scary sight. I felt kind of sad. Visits to the hospital, blood test, scans and chemotherapy has become part of my life now. Behind the happiness and love I feel from my mum and sis who accompanied me, behind all the happy days I have, this is the kind of life I lead, full of physical pain, discomfort and constant threats of death.

19/01/06 TOP OF THE WORLD

Well, not really top of the world...top of SG at the Equinox.

Be wary that this is going to one entry so full of pictures, but I have to document them! It's one helluva enjoyable day I had, so shiok memories of it probably can serve as painkillers for me one day ^_^

The strange lift that took us to the 70th floor, the screen shows not the storeys but 'EZ'...is the lift hao lian or what? Telling us it's chicken feed to travel 70 floors upwards.

When we reached the restaurant, we were a bit surprised by the oriental setting, Compass Rose's settings were pretty contemporary last time, like a normal cafe. The simplistic plain wood oriental syle was pretty refreshing.

Was ushered to a seat below the pink arrow, fantastic table 'cept for the fact a 'yucks' fellow was sitting beside us. He just talked non-stop, very loudly, and all said were either nonsense, stupid crap or show-offies. I absolutely cannot stand any male who yak incessantly thus requested to change table to around 2 tables behind him.

Hee! Got a even better view awaits us! This is how it looks like when it raining heavily outside, I love the rain, I love the sea so this is like PERFECT! Occasionally even saw lightning flash and slice the sky into half! Cool!

Can you see the faint horizon in a distance?

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This is the view when the rain cleared, ships dotting the clear sea and huge fluffy clouds puffed up the sky.

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So happy, they served smoked salmon with cream n roe by the soup spoon~

Decorated my own water glass with a mint leaf ^_^

I know this little brown fella looks pretty unappetizing, but it's my favourite thing at the buffet besides the roasted duck, crepe, salad, cheese cakes, white n brown chocolate sheets rolled into tiny tubes etc

This is Creme Brulée in a small saucer. The thin crust of slightly burnt sugar on top is so good so good we bite into it and swirl coffee in our mouths, as it melts with the copi ...waaaaahhhhhhh. Underneath all the creme are sprinkles of green tea powder-like stuff. I had 4 of those.

The whipped cream with pancakes is yummy too~ The cream so light and yet milky! I just ate spoonfuls after spoonfuls!

Next are some pictures of a good looking fella and some scenery shots I attempted.

Esplanade really looks like housefly eyes.

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All these comes included in the buffet bill! I had the best bird-eye's view of SG during high tea. Really very 'high' throughout the tea from laughing with Ros, the fine food and superb view.

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Impressive boudoir style make-up 'corner' in the ladies' toilet!!! Totally brought out the narcissism in me with all these mirrors. Being narcissistic rulez! :p

Tried too hard to make my arms look slimmer, they can hardly be seen. This is the cute techni-coloured lift by the way. Matches my blouse~

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~Me and Feng in a magical world~

After that we went on to Tanglin to look at antiques, do field research on expatriate fashion and most importantly look for my opal stone! Rained heavily in the night again, then took cab to Heeren and shop. I feel so adored and loved as Ros always pretends I'm a real princess by holding my hand up, carrying umbrella for me. Super funny and hilarious when we try to crush each other's fingers by sheer brute strength when holding hands. It really feels good to laugh and giggle or grin almost all the time when we are together, thank you dear.

Took cab home and instructed the driver to go by ECP to capture the wonderful view once again on ground level.

Took this picture behind the cab window, quite lovely in the night as well :) Good night Singapore!

18/01/06 CURRY FAVOUR

Webmaster of twoqueensparty invited me to a private pool party this Saturday but I most probably won't be able to go! Boohoo...cos if chemo on Friday, Saturday is going to be horrid :( A private les pool party and I cannot go, so sianz! Everytime there's one place I can't go due to chemo, gotta be positive and think of lots other happening places I have been or going to be right!

One of these is ^Curry Favour^! This little restaurant at Stamford house is goooooooood. The premises is divided into two, me and Ros sat at the MoonRiver side cos got lovely relaxing sexy Jazz music while we chat and eat. The decor is also slightly nicer.

Cosy jazzy little place that smells of tantalizing sweet japanese curry and dessert.

For starters, I ordered pork roll and Ros got an Oj Banana smoothie. Both are excellent! Orange juice with banana smoothie is so tantalizing on the tongue! I adore the pork roll cos its like super thin slices of soft teriyaki bacon rolled around jade-green shoots of asparagus *ECSTACY* When you bite into it, some juicy fats and fragrant lean pork and sweet crunchy asparagus, thinking about it makes me salivate.

Shiny exciting pork roll resting peacefully before I eat them

Next we decided to share a main course Cheese Katsu (pork) Curry that consist of rice, red pickles, salad and a silver gracy pot of sweet curry.

Much to Ros' delight, the fried pork within the crispy breaded batter is lean and tender! Can you see the cheese oOzing out when we try to cut that piece of pork?!!! Need I say more!!?

No Jap meal is complete without warm Sake! No meal is complete without dessert!

So we ordered a small warm sake (the sake there not very nice actually we found out), and vanilla ice-cream with apple crumble. The apple crumble was goood with a hint of cinammon, only it was not warm enough which was just as well for me cos I get to enjoy the ice-cream properly :)

I was so excited to see the dessert when it came, we just chat and eat and chat and eat, it was very promptly finished as we held hands, gazed into each others' eyes. Before we knew it, the whole dessert was gone...who ate it!?

There was this white powdery thing that coated the crumble which I like, and Ros like the pieces of apple baked to various degrees inside, the big messy ball of white on top of the pie is the yummy ice-cream that never melted because the pie wasn't hot enough :p

The pricing was pretty reasonable for pork rolls, smoothie, warm sake, main course and dessert...around $50 plus. WORTH IT.

Anyway, please don't think I always eat yummy food only hoh meimei, look at this! I'm eating this for lunch right now~~

Light meal of brown rice, wild rice and cabbage with black fungus. At home, I passionately only eat cod fish, vegetables and rice.

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18/01/06 EXCITING NEW DAY

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Deardeer has taken leave to accompany me! Yeah!!!! It's ^EQUINOX^ today, cool! By the way, the highlighted word is a link, go click and see its lovely!

Been wanted to go to Equinox's 前身 which was Compass Rose, but last time always no money...hai* When Compass Rose was still around, I was a student mah! Heard they used to serve unlimited pan fried Foie Gras, now must be no more liao! Boohooo...anyway got H5N1, don't eat also good lah hee!

I hope Equinox's buffet is going to be fantastic. Great paranomic view of the city from one of the highest point in SG, delicious food and *cross my fingers* hopefully good service, llalalaaaallalalalala what a wonderful day!

Gotta go Takashimaya ^Clio Blue^ (I like their hippy looking natural stone collections!) to fix my ^bracelet^, 2-3 beads/pearls are missing but basically all the charms are still intact. It broke the day before I left the house to meet Ros, xin and cheryl for dinner then go Thumper.
Hope the Clio Blue people don't take too long this time. I remembered the last time the clasp was loose, they told me it was being sent to France then changed destination become Hongkong, I waited for almost a month! :(

Besides sending my bracelet for fixing, we're going opal hunting!!! I hope those natural/semi-precious stones jewellery stores in Tanglin or Centrepoint have what I want in reasonable prices. If anyone see any nice opal Jewellery, tell me!

So looking forward to high tea today, can't wait to have a great time!

17/01/06 WONDERFUL NIGHT

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My life seems to revolve around food :p My stomach seems to be bloated with cancer fluid again (uh oh, is the chemo not working this time?), so since it looks so fat, I thought I might as well fill it up with some food as well.

Wah! Today got form siah...my 3rd entry so far already! GOSH. Just finished family dinner with BengLeng and Ros joining us. Thanks again BengLeng for treating us to big dinner! It was ala carte buffet at Paramount Tung Lok, wonderful variety and I was filled to the ears with food. Between the 6 of us, we had around 42 dishes. SHOCKING!

Talking about generousity, I remembered Meimei also very sweet during Xmas, got me an onyx pendant that super match my ^watch^.

I really gotta thank God for giving me this wonderful time, Papa, Mummy, Meimei, BL, Me and Ros sitting down together as a family for a meal, so blissful. I believe me and Feng are one of the very few les couples who can have such a chance.

Throughout the whole dinner, my dad kept telling freezing cold jokes which Meimei gotta tickle BL so at least someone will laugh. My appetite was slightly affected as attention diverted to the back view of this man who sat directly opposite my table.

We seldom find middle-aged men with shoulder length hair nowadays.

Before tonight, I never thought my family will propose to celebrate my girlfriend's birthday for her. Although there was no cake, no singing but there was a lot of love and laughter. Dear took video clips of me eating and eating with her handphone, so paiseh. Meimei took pictures for me and Ros, my parents bickering comfortably in front of both Ros and BL...LOL. All of us sitting around the table may not be the movie perfect picture, but this is a wonderful picture in its own for me.

~Happy Couple~

17/01/06 WORMS AMONG MY PEAS

This unfortunate incidents happened yesterday. Before I set out for my try out at Curry Favour, mum cooked some organic beans and carrots for me to eat with my brown rice. Being organic vegetables, it means they were grown entirely with natural soil. No chemical pesticides or fertilisers involved in the whole farming process.

The beans looks delicious, fat supple peas lying side by side in each green shiny pod. I took my first pod and started chewing happily, commenting to my mum, "Mee ah, you forgot to de-string them issit, got the veiny texture...pui....EEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!! AAAARrrHHHHHH!"
See the mushed up worm among the mashed peas? That's what I pui out from my mouth when I realise my bean's texture is far to un-vege like. It was a fat green caterpillar I think.
Mummy, "Wah! good ah! got caterpillar means these beans are truly organic! Never use pesticides one! Very good for health. Worms can eat one lah, tv also got show."

I mean, she is right in a way, this little worm is probably cleaner and healthier than most human beings, its an organic worm :p

I went on to peel open every single pod before eating the whole bean, and found ANOTHER fat green caterpillar in one of the pods. That bean, my mum swiftly grabbed with one hand and threw into the bin, for fear that I'll stop eating.

"They very poor thing hoh, vegetarians all their life then kena stir-fried by you and photographed by me."

"They all eat until so fat and happy, never mind one lah."

I gingerly continued to peel open another pod and this time found a skinny brown fellow that hadn't fattened up yet.

Another juicy bean pod wasted.

We both laughed at the irony of the situation, it used to be so freaking awful to find a worm among our vegetables. Most of our vegetables and meat are so laden with poisonous pesticides and chemical fertilisers nowadays that even strong hardy worms cannot survive among the plots. We're slowly poisoning ourselves with modern day growing and preservation methods. Now, it seems like the natural way (but really wormy expensive :( way) is the way to go manz.

Talking about healthy food, mum made this unique dish the other day.

Cashew Nut porridge soup with Broccoli, really really light and tasty!

17/01/06 HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR

~HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU MY DARLING HONEY H BABY

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GOD MUST HAVE RESERVED YOU FOR ME 27 YEARS AGO WHEN YOU WERE BORN, HOW ELSE CAN I FEEL SO SPECIAL EVER SINCE YOU DECIDED TO GIVE ME THAT RUBBER DUCKIE SET WHEN I WAS BARELY 17?

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THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS HAVING A PLACE FOR ME IN YOUR HEART FOR ALMOST 10 YEARS.

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THE DAY YOU TOOK YOUR FIRST BREATH WAS THE DAY DESTINY ARRANGED FOR ME TO BE PAMPERED AND LOVED. I CELEBRATE THIS DAY WITH THE PUREST JOY AND HAPPINESS.

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~HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~

16/01/06 BURGERS AND GEISHAS

Bought a Carl's Junior Mushroom Burger Combo yesterday, changed the fries to criss-cut fries. The meal costs about $12! Expensive right.



The mushroom inside quite juicy and slippery smooth, beef patty is slightly softer and thicker than BK's. The criss cut fries is goooood, very crispy on the outside and fluffy inside. They have this salsa thingy (that little saucer) made of green , red pepper and onions which Ros Yucks to, but I quite like.

This is about how big the burger is, compare with the size of Ros' thumb :p You know they give out plastic knives for people who wanna share so they can use it to half the burger. So almost every table gets a plastic knife, so environmentally NOT friendly! Carl's Junior should just help their customer slice the burgers what...hai*

Talking about HUGE USA portions, I think of my last trip to Billy Bomber's. Me and Ros got free cheesy fries that look more like wedges, plus ordered their largest burger. Wanna see the amazing yummy fries?

The amount of cheese dip ! Gosh! And the fries were all thicker than my fingers, so crispy and fat! It was really too much by the way, we could never finish it so we ended up leaving a lot uneaten.

What's left. (notice all the cheese dip has been licked away by me, wahahahahahaha)

This is Billy Bomber's largest burger, got TWO sunny side ups, cheese, bacon, ham, tomato, lettuce, pickles and super thick beef patty. I forgot the price though, but definitely more expensive lah! Duh!

SUPER HAWAIIAN WITH CHEESY LAVA CRUST

Okie just for fun and since we're talking about food. This is me and Feng's favourite pizza which meimei's bf Bengleng treated us to on Christmas! wWoOoOoh, the different types of melted cheese all oOzing out of the holes in the crust.

Hey! How come all food and no geishas! Keke, ok Memoirs of the Geisha was better than I expected. Though Zhang Ziyi's face totally don't match the perfect beauty Chiyo that was portrayed in the book, Gong Li was a stunner. She's the best Hatsumomo we can find I think.

Young little chiyo is such a lovely pretty little girl. This movie is a bit like the opposite of the Harry Potter Movie, because the scene of the dance is much filmed with much more grandeur and fireworks and exaggeration than the book. In HP, the dance was filmed to be such a floppy lame scene, quite different from what's written. I would so much prefer if every thing's just nice, but well nothing is perfect.

This is the most Japanese outfit I can find, coupled with my hair, I tried looking a bit more jap than ZZY's scary poster.

Feng suggested something after that picture, I was afraid of being laughed at by passer-bys but we really couldn't resist the temptation of doing it! It was just there, so big a pair...at my eye-level somemore, beckoning to us, just had to do it quickly!!!!!!! *shy*

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